7" m rrvTv i 0 Published by a Joint' Stock Company under tlio Patronage of the North Carolina Conference Wm. E. Poll, Editor. VOL. V I. NO. 37. BALEIGH, N. C, WEDNESDAY, JULY 22, 1863. THREE DOLLARS A YKAR, IX ADVANCE. C A A D VO CA i-i;lan At'.weate Publishing Com pany 1 .1X0. 1 FO.Vill, rKns::r.XT. r.i-v. V"ji. II. Clsis:;im. O. (. Ucv. J. Ili-XT, ami Zkxo II. i- f . V. V. is v-iMii'.K'vl every Wediu'.ilay '. t. :t 3 l i'V : ;ii r.!il. .I (". ').'. Out- Ht ... ,''.; mi lit.' Citth pi iiiciji'c. . .-. . ...... i. if i:ared $ 1 per snuaro j Hi. s loss, f-.r :":r.--i icst rti.-n, a;d at' cents - .:::.r.' i- r e.tca su'-m. incut insertion. . i :, .( ... '.c -.',';"'(.' I its tuts vutt . . .."( . .'. f.-'.i' C (('(? .' . ' llCV. i.. 1 ivau-i.r';. -. C. t . v; (Original. Tiio Army Mission.' Mil. K-.ituu I desire through the c . Innins of the JfY-Jc7.V, to submit a few !:. uhi.-: to the ndnlstors and laity of the Church in li e North Carolina Conference, . n the subject of supplying the troops fjvi.'i North Carolina with ministerial aid. I d'- so -vvtth extreme reluctance. Sever al vreks ago I prepared an article on the Mi'-joct. but withheld it, hoping that some o..io t '..-o would d!cass the matter. I now , rl;e with the hope of calling out aider p.;,;. and those who have less repugnance than I have, to appear in the public jour- 1:::!-. North Carolina has now in the field slxtv-live regiments and nine battalions, be-ides a number of detached companies. 31::;; v of these regiments have been in rvk-e for mere than two years, and have j, ver had a chaplain. Our sons have v.. .-Led awav by disease or fallen on the field, and have had no minister of Christ to direct t:n m to a bleeding Saviour, orto administer to them the consolations of re li'. ii in th-irf-ufTering3. This. 1 suppose, is not because of the j-v:uvitv o ministers, or of their unwil- L'ncts to reive, or because. the Church -j w:. riot able or willing to support thein. "VY! i a the war was firt opened, the Leg- i, of X- rth Carolina made rrovision r . - ; iwA r: -sis taut Chaplain, to cvnr rp'iMurui. .Tw . . . ' ji: . adab'e zeal appoint od Chaplains lo the lvtmcnts as fa.-t as tbey were formed. 1 iider his ad mi nisi rat ion it constituted a part of the organization of every regiment. s Unfortunately f'1' the religious interests of our trc-opF, they wore at an c J J tiansfcrred to the Southern Confederacy. Then difiereut counsels obtained, and soon nearly ail the Chaplains appointed by State authority resigned. A general apatby on the subject followed. The few Chaplains who remained amidst all the disaura'omcnls which surrounded them, have since reaped a glorious har vst, and thore who u went forth weeping, Loaring precious seed," have since "re turned rejoicing, bringing their sheaves with them.'' The harvet is now ripe, but the labo rers are few. The question therefore comes p io ns as christians, how may tiiore laborers be sent forth? 1 '" of our liishops have published a f taleiiicnt. in which they inform us, that e at a recent meeting of the ishops and 1'Ioard of Managers of the Missionary So ciety of our Church, it was determined to send several missionaries to the Confede rate army." For this determination two reasons are assigned. The first is, that '; it is well niah impossible to furnish Chaplains to every regiment without breaking up the organization at home." I e aifoss my surprise at that announce ment. If true of other portions oJ the work, it certainly floes 'not appry to North Carolina. Uefore cnir State vas invaded we had preachers enough , to fill every pastoral charge in the Conference. Vo liayr them y:;t. Nineteen charges are now within 'he enemy's lines, which leaves a surplus of about twenty preach ers without work. There are four lead ing denominations in North Carolina who are doing fully as well as the Methodists, in furnish in ;r Ch.iolains indeed better. Our proportion in the Stale would only b- about twenty. Uut our Conference bounds do not include the whole State. t A portiou of the "'irgini Conference ly ljrdng in this State is in the enemy's lines also, and the preachers who have left those charges, if added to ours who are without work, would increase the surplus of Methodist voaehers in the State, to at least thirty. Now how the supplying the army, with fifteen or- twenty additional Chaplains from our Church in this State, is lo disturb the organization at home, I cannot conceive. I think it involves a dillieulty which the llnee, ishops will lvjrdly be able to exjdaiu. . What is true f Xorto Carolina is also true of other 1 fctalea and ( -oil u von cos. Kentucky-. Mis- souri, Arkansas, Tennessee, Louisiana and portions of Virginia, Mississippi, Alabama snd South Carolina arc in the enemy's lines. Whero are the preachers? Ma ny of them who have been driven from their work, must be in reach of the liish ops and could fill Chaplaincies. So far as I can learn, no minister from North Carolina has yet been called to serve as an army missionary, although the State has 00,000 men in the field. I do npt mention this as a complaint but as an ar trmnent. It proves this : that while the N. C. Conf erence has a surplus of preach ers, more than enough to supply its pro portion of Chaplains to every regiment in the army, other Conferences must have a still larger surplus, as it has not been found necessary to call on the X. C. Conference for a single preacher for the army mission, cV it proves that in the judgment of ishop Early, therein no man in our Conference fit for the work. The second reason assigned is, that the Government is heavily burdened and can not bear the expense of chaplains. This to me is more astounding than the former. The government says it can " meet this want," and has provided by law for a Chaplain to each regiment. Hence there is a difference of opinion between the three ISishops and the government. Which is mcstlikeiy to be correct? Let us sec. In every regiment there are for-tyr-fivc commissioned ofiicers. The pay of the lowest is that of second Lieutenant. The pay of Chaplain is tho same. The three Bishops do not. qu.es tion the ability of the government to pay the forty-five, but gravely tell us th:;t it cannot pay the forty-sixth. Tbat'Is the la.-1 straw which breaks the camel's back. But who pays these officers t All the people of the Southern Confederacy. To whom do the three Bishops appeal for enlarged liberali ty to " meet this want" which they seem to think a?! the people cannot meet? Why to the Methodists of the Confcdera- - ot r r.iiise. If oi cannot "meet this Tl . '1 . 1 . n n . - a. . .... ' attention to the fact, that these two rea- sons which I have been reviewing, are the only reasons given by the Bishops for this new missionary enterprise, for the sup port of which you are appealed to for un wonted liberality. I have shown that these reasons are founded upon incorrect assumptions. Let us now turn to the action of the Missionary Board ifself. The second res olution of the Board reads as follows : "Jtcsoh e,?, T'irJ tTio'Bisliops !e, and Uicy nro hereby auth.riel and requested to appoint such (Jenera! Missionaries t the various departments of the army, as ia their judgment the demand re quires and the funds t the Society may justify: Pfji-iih-'?, that the3r f hall not appoint more than oiia General Missionary to each Army Corps." - My first objection to this action of the Board is, that it is a usurpation of power not guaranteed to it, cither by express grant or implied, by the Discipline, and that it is an infringement of the rights of the Annual Conferences. Whither are we drifting ? The Board says it "authori zes, and requests" tho Bishops, &e. I suppose it mayT request whatever it choos es, but when it presumes to authorize ft thing, it may be pertinent to inquire,' where did it get the right to authorize any puch thin or ? Who authorized it to con-, vcy any such authority to others ? The only authority which it has is that which the General Conference gives it, as ex pressed in the book of Discipline. On pages 23-80, the Discipline says, the Board shall have authority to make by laws to regulate its own proceedings to appropriate money to defray incidental expenses to provide for the support of superannuated missionaries, &c. to print books, See. to present, u statement of its transactions to tho aunual meetings and to the Generrd Conference. On page 2-11, it has authority to fix tho salary of its Secretary, and wn page 216, authority is given to fill vacancies occurring in the Board. No one, I judge, will prctesd that the authority it claims, ia to be found in any of the above items ? But the above ia all the authority conferred upon the Board by trre laws of the Church. True, on page 201, it is provided that an autumnal meeting of .the Board shall be held, at which time, in conjunction with the Bishops it shall determine what oreiijn fields shall be occupied, &c. That gives the Board authority, not of itself, but in conjunction with the Bishops, to supervise our forr vjn missions. And on page 24G, a like authority is given to an nual Conferences over our domestic mis sions. I will not insult -the intelligence of your readers by presenting an argu ment to prove, that by sending ministers lo preach to our. own citizens to our fath ers, brothers, and sons in the Army, is not a foreign mission. That would be as ri diculous as to attempt, seriously to prove, that a meeting held in tho month' of April, was net an autumnal meeting ! The only auswer to all this, which ! have heard, is, that tho necessities of tho cas:) required this departure from the law. I answer, that bad as our Church regula tions are in regard to our Missionary ope rations, and in my judgment they are had enough, I am not prepared to admit that they are so bad as to render it necessary that the Bishops of the Church and the Missionary Board should over-ride or ig nore the law in order to do good. But it may be answered, it is a small matter, so that good be accomplished, whether it be done in strict accordance with law or not. It may be small in itself, but it is not so in its practical results. When men vio late one law of the Church under the plea of necessity or expediency, they soon reach a point when they can violate any other law, though no such imaginary necessity exists. A proof of this is at hand in the action of this same Board in fixing the al lowance of the General Missionaries to the Army. The Discipline expressly says, " The sum allowed for the support of Mis sionaries shall not exceed the usual allow-" anee of other itinerant ministers," page 212. The amount allowed to other itiner ant ministers, i.- regulated byr their being married or unmarried, and by the number of children they have under certain ages. This rule has been ignored by the Board. It has fixed the allow anee of each General Mbsiemuy at $8,000 per annum, without regard to the size of his family. Now, I am no advocate for our pres ent system of finance. I think a much better svslcni mi.;ht bo adopted. But while the present is the law of the Church, I insist that it be enforced and applied, especially to those who' have it in their power to renoal or amend bad laws, and subs' itu? W.tler ones. When men be- gument that they can feel, is the applica tion of an oppressive lav.' to themselves. The last objection T shall afe present of fer to the action of the Board is, thafit is wholly inefficient. It "authorizes and requests" tho Bishops to appoint mission aries to our ariry, provided they do not appoint more than one General Missiona ry to each Army corps. Now an army corps when full is about 40,000 men. All experience shows, that one minister to a regiment, has all that ho can do. The Legislature of North Carolina thought two necessaiy at first. Tho Missionary Board restricts the Bishops to one to about 10 regiments, giving one man the work that would require 40 to perform. We may easily imagine how it will be done, and what amount of service the troops of North Carolina will receive, scattered as they are among the different corps in .Virgin ia, Tennessee and in this State. The practical result must be that after the people of North Carolina have responded to the appeal for "enlarged liberality our soldiers will get but little missionary service from this source. But tho answer to this is, that these are 'General Missionaries, who are appoint ed to superintend the work. What work? Who have we ia the army to superintend ? Is it the few Chaplains of regiments we have there? If that be the intention, I presume the humble Chaplain as he toils and suffers in his arduous work and re ceives from the goycrnnienrhis $9G0 per annum, will promptly tell fthese $8,000 men, that his Colonel has charge of him, and that he can gftt,vaIoiir without any other superior. "J '. y But it may bo'saul, other ' "missionaries arc to be appointed. Where is the pro vision for that? The Board has made no such provision, if it .required the authori ty of the Board to appoint iuorc ttan one. But if it did not require its authority at all, its proceeding in this matter is a ridiculous fsree. But tho Bishops have acknowledged its authority and are actim; under it. Thoy will of course not go be yond the authority thus given them, and nothing will be done. Yes, this much will be done. The people of North Caro lina will contribute large sums of money to send preachers to servo their brave sous, brothers, husbands and friends in the army, but they will receive precious little service, and those who appeal to them for money for this mission, will be called on lo explain why the troops from. North Carolina are not being served, and what has become of the money. General distrust will be the consequence at home, and in the army there will b no change for the better. But Methodists of North Carolina, are we relieved of responsibility in this mat ter ? Are we to sit down quietly at home and enjoy all the advantages of the 'gos pel, and leave our own children and broth ers to fight our battles, and do, nothing to ' furnish them with the word of life and the means of grace ? Truly, we would be guilty not only of the blood of our brethren, but of the blood of our own children. The means are in our own hands. Let us act at once, and histead of waiting for this dilatory and inefficient scheme- let us adopt one that is practical and that can be carried into operation at once. In the absence of auy other, I will sug gest tho following as feasible. And first, let us co-operate with the Government to furnish a Chaplain, in conjunction with other denominations, "to each Regiment. Let the Methodist Church in North Car olina furnish her full proportion. This would only require two or three preachers from each Presiding Elder's District. Let the Presiding Elders at once ascertain from the preachers who will volunteer for thia work. Let there be a meeting of thq Presiding Elders and one layman frosi each District, at the earliest day, say at Greensboro, the third Wednesday in Au gust next : and for the sake of conveni enee, let the' District Stewards be the lay men to attend that meeting. Let the Pre siding Elders agree upon tho Kon who shall go as Chaplains, and let the laymen estimate the amount necessary, to be paid to each one, hi addition lo the amount paid lij the Government. Let the case of our faithful Bro. Belts, who has labored ever . , n, since the opening o the. war as a Cnap- lain, only for Chaplain's pay, be taken in- to consideration, and let him be put on an eqc footing with these now to be sent out And if there be other Chaplains of our Chut eli from North. Carolina, let them be included. When the men prese lected for the work, it would be well for ing the meeting suggested, to sign a re commendation to the Chaplaincy for each man selected, and let them be forwarded at once to. the Colonels needing Chaplains. That would secure their appointment and guard the Colonels against the application of impropci men. After the plan has been adopted and the amount necessary to bo raised ascertained, let it be assessed to tho several Districts according to ability, and collections forthwith taken up to meet it. I do not iiisist upon this plan in any or all of its features, but I only suggest it in '. the absence of any other, except the plan , of the Board of 3Iissions. It has to my '. mind, superior claims to that. First, it ) violates no law of the Church and infrin- j ges upon no one's rights. Secondly, it co operates witlf'lhe Government according to its plan authorised by law. Thirdby, it secures for the army 40 preachers instead of one. Fourthly, it is more economical ; instead of calling upon the members and friends of tho Church, who also have to j bear their enual proportion of the eipen- ; ses of this war, to contribute '$3,000 for the support of each preacher sent to the army, it secures the 9G for each Chap lain pledged by the government, and only requires the raising of the deficiency to make up each man's support.' In taking up the collections let them be raised for !' that specific purpose. Do not call them . Missionary collections. That term has been sufficiently abused. Hoping to hear from ' others on this subject at an early day, and earnestly de siring that some efficient plan "shall bo promptly adopted, to send the gospel to tho army and to do our full share in this work, I subscribe mvself Your brother and fellow laborer, WILLIAM CLOSS. Louisbuucs, July 14, 1SG3. - The Mather. Bishop Doane, on the death of Bv. Dr Wharton, said: "He is to be added, on his own testimony, to the host of great and good men who have owed their great ness and their goodness, under God, to a mother's precepts, and teader carcases, " he says iu a little sketch of his first fifteen years, "are still fiesh in my memory, and frequently present her dear image to my mind. Until eighty five years of age, he was accustomed to speak of these benefits with the fervor aud susceptibility of youth." To-day is ours. Work while it is call ed to-day. Work what? rDo tho duty which licth next you. .Workout your own salvation. I7o works meet for repen tance. Do with thy might whatsoever thy hand fiudeih to do. Work li'-w ? Earnestly, faithfully, courageously, humb ly, lovingly, prayerfully. tltttxans. Religion in the Anay. We clip the following extract on this subject from' the report of llev. Mr. Dick inson, Superintendant of Colportage, to the recent General BapCt Association of Virginia: ' Modern history presents no example of armies so nearly converted into churches as the armies of Southern defence. On tho crest of this flood of war which threat ens to engulf our freedom,' rides a pure Christianity j the gospel of the grace of God shines through the smoke of battle, with the light that leads to heaven ; and tho catap becomes a school of Christ. This accords with the great lawof Prov idence that what ministers to tho peace of mankind should be born out of commo tionthat when the evil cf tho world beats on U3 as a storm, tho clouds should disfcil the manna of JZu goodness. When, shortly afto? Christ's ascension, a furious persecution broke out against Hi3 follow ers,' who enjoyed quiet and the peaceful blessings of the gospel at Jerusalem, and Stephen was stoned, it seemed to te a sad and overwhelming calaufai'ty to tho church, but it only opened a new sphere for the church's activity, and led to the diffusion of the. gospel. "They that were scattered abroad throughout the regions of J udea and Samaria, went everywhere preaching the word." "Tho word grew and multi plied," and "many became, obedient unto the faith." We may look for like results in the per secution which Providence permits to come on our land as 'an overflowing scourge.' We have already seen them ; those of us, at least, who have aousht ont the works oi the Lord. From the TOry first day of the i nnTianivo- nnfitesr. t.n the Tireafiiit time, relicr- T Qus influencea have been spreading among ' the soldiers until now, in camp ancl ho3- j pital, throughout almost every portion of I thC army, revivals display their precious, 1 saving power. In one ot these revivals t oyer mudrcd aro knwn a3 liaving t professed conversion, while doubtless thero t are hundreds ot others -equally blessed, ., whose names, unrecorded nere, unci a 1 place in the "Lamb's book of life." This ' levival is still in progress, with unbated interest. And if such be the state of things now, what may wo not expect of God's people, with one heart and one mind, come up to "the help of the Lord to tnc help of fcuc Lord against the rt:ijrh- ty." - In many who have been called to share the privations and perils of military scr vice, there has beeu a marked develop ment cf the Christian character. The re pose of home, before the war, hnd tecni inglv lulled them to slumber. If not for- 1 gotful of their obligations, as well to the heathen at our doors as to those afar off, they were undemonstrative and retiring in religious matters1 shrank from the pub licity of active labor for the Lord stood idle in the vineyard. But thrown amidst the stirring incidents and confronting the doubtful issue of a campaign, they have awakened out of sleep. They, have felt themselves moved to speak for desus; have counted it a privilege to testily, in the audience of their assembled comrades, or in the unreserve of private intercourse, j "the things which make for the peace" of the soul. A chaplain communicates the following fact, which exemplifies this re-" mark:; "Captain J , a Bapt;st broth- j er, ha3 recently began to pray in public, : and occasionally he delivers an exhortation. He is now so much enlisted in the Mast- er's service,, that he has consented to take my place tor some weeks, whne I sr.all be absent on furlough, and conduct the meet ings. The war is wonderfully developing his gifts." We may confidently expect tnat many soldiers will be called to tread this path ; will be conducted through tlie camp into the pulpit, as indeed some have already been. The influences which have quickened spiritual lifa in these believers, have given - birth to it m mrltitudec who entered the s- army strangers to the grace of God. Far f. from home and friends, toiling on the march, cr languishing in the hospital, their eyes have been turned to Him, whose love ; sited abroad in tho heart, is " strength in the timct'f weaknes?, light in tho. time of darkness, joy in tho time cf sonow," life : in death, life ocyond death. Iiow often havo coaplairw and colporters heard the 5 penitent exclaim," I thank Gcd' for this j siekness, this wound, this absence from J- home, for it has been instrumental in lead ing me to the Friend of sinners!" .So strikingly docs Providence prepare the soil ; for the sower, bearing the precious seed of sating truth. Scepticism, pride;, the hope of long life, the lust of gain, ambitious . j worldliness, these and other barriers ' which often interpose between tho souls t of men and the service of Gcd, are, in tho '. cases of thousands in the camp, and cspo I. cially in tho hospital, taken out of the way, by the stroke of that rod which is smiting the nation to gave it. Powerful Speaking. Many arc mis led by the admiration of what i3 called a powerful discourse, forgetting that that is the most powerful which best effects the object proposed. The power of a sample of gunpowder or of a piece of ordnance, is i tested, not by tho loudness of the leport, i but by the depth of tho impression made ' on thfi tari ftt. ArchiuiJifn Whntrl-t Thc Great Need. In every stage of the world's history some conspicuous want ha evcr.shono forth in the church. Though it has as sumed various forms in the dajs gone by, giving a wide field for debate as to what ,tbat need may have beeu, w hardly think many will fail to agree with uj in believ ing that a want of heart sadly character izes the religion of ur day. Few iu this land of light and privileges can throw the mantle of ignorance over th?ir failure t improve the opportunities of " increasing knowledge." Kings and prophets longed to see, and died without the eight of those blessed truths which a lisping child hears while kneeling at a mother's knee. No, this unction may be laid to na soul now. On the contrary .wo hear oftentimes too much to be' properly digested', nay, to dissi pate in books and sermons. The religion of Jesus was intended to find its choicest soil in the garden ef the heart tho mind being tho medium though which these blessings were to flow. Compared with vs the disciples themselves were deficient in knowledge, and yet how fur above us arc their flights ofgrace. And vhy with all our multiplied privileges are we so clog ged in our journey heavenward so faint in our endeavors aftor the unfading cro u ? It is because we want heart-warmth, earn estness, life. An easy thing it is to admire beautiful sentences in a sermon, and feel all aglow while .soaring on the wings of some poetic thought. But alas ! when we descend to the constant labor, the dry de tails and practical duties begotten of every day, how little dp wo become ! fc-entiment, a love for tbo 'beautiful, prctfy thought, Christ died not to inculcate these. We must lock elsewhere would we find it. Religion is a thing of tho' heart sublimat ing every desire, purifying every thought, ftnd throwing a lialo around all the affairs of life. And if We reach hcr.vcn, this sickly life must bo mortified, and throwing off the covering of sentimcntalisni, wo mjist brace up ourselves for a long struggle, a fierce conflict, and give Cod our Jirorti.-- Tlic Southern Chvrchmun. The licginnin. IlBADEtt, the beginning of all saving re ligion is to become acquainted with Jesus Christ. This is the corner-stone of Chris tianity. A watch without a mainspring is not more useless than a religion without Christ. But let mo not be misunderstood. It is not the mere knowledge of Chrkt's name that I mean, it is tho knowing his mcroy, feiaco and power ; the knowing him not by the hearing of the car, but by the experi ence of your heart. I want jou to know him by faith I want you to be abl to say of him, " He is .my peace and my strength, my life-and my consolation, my Physician and my Shepherd, my Saviour and my God." Why do I make such a point of this? I do it because in Christ alone " all ful ness dwells." Col. 1:19. In him alone thore is a full supply of all that we require for the necessities of our souls. .Of our selves we arc all poor empty creatures, empty of righteousness and peace, empty of strength and comfort, empty of courage and patience, empty of ptwer to ftand, or go on, or make progress in this evil world. It is in Christ alone that all these things arc to be found grace, peace, wisdom, righteousness, eauctification, and redemp tion. It is just in proportion as we live upon Christ that we aro strong Christians. It is only when self is nothing and Christ i all in our confidence, it is thrn only that we shall do great exploits. Then only aro we armed for the battle of life, and shall overcome. Then only arc we prepared for the journey of life, and shall go forward. To live on Christ, to draw all from Chris, to do all in the strength cf Christ,-to le ever lookfng unto Christ, th;3 is the true secret of spiritual prosperity. "I can do all thi OajO A Kill, VMIUUgU VIiri&fc r. T1...1 ii o v. m. . which strengtbeneth m." Phil. 4 : 13. Iceadcr, do you xcant to moie a legn nlnr m relition f Go a? a bumble sinner, to Jesus Christ and cntrc.it him an mo jour soul. This is the right end of the rope- Begin here. your .Soul f:afet' Such was the question addressed recc;:?- 1 by a young Christian officer, wull kuown to mc,,to a brothor in arms, who was run ning eagerly, in the paths of folly ttud sin. The question was put under the canopy of Leaven, at night, as they walked together. It was an crrow from the Spirit's quiver. It led to repentance, faith, newness of life : and new the young convert tmd Christian eoldier is seeking the salvation of others once his associates in cvi!. Answer, then, O rtader, the nucstioa now. " 13 your soul eafc I" Yea or nay is yntr tout tajr. ? Are yon in Christ Lj living, personal iait: r Have you tee evidence that vour sins nrn fnr"Ivtn vnn .through His blood, that His robe of right- eousness covers, you, and that His Spirit has made you anew creature? If not seek salvation now fcVE.'i Now! Be lieve, and live. And if you tire tafo your self, go forth as Christ's ambafsador, uni gently, lovingly, tearlully, earnestly, faith fully, say to brother, sister, acquaintance, neighbor, " Z- your soid safe f" Test or Ciiaacti:x If vou hav really given up your heart to God in prt vatp. vnur llfo will show Tar th l!m rir?oA cf God in public : if Gcd has the hcjirt he is sure "of the life.