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up the apartment and steal all this stuff. It was just a lot of
psychological violence afterwards. Finally he left and I called the
police."
The next day Anne decided to move into the house with a
woman she works with, a move she considered unnecessary until
the second rape.
The second rape destroyed the fragile sense of security she was
beginning to regain during the police stakeout, she says. "After
the first rape, I thought 1 was going to be fine. I thought he (the
rapist) had forgotten me. I was beginning to recover and forget
about him a little so 1 wasn't thinking about him every five
minutes. So I figured he had forgotten about me, and I was
terrorized to find out that he hadn't.
44 1 would never be safe again. 1 mean that's the way I felt. If he
wanted to find me, he could find me anywhere. I had had my
windows nailed shut, but he broke in through one of them
anyway!"
Meanwhile, she was disappointed in the psychiatric treatment
she was receiving for an emotional unbalance stemming from the
first rape, she says. During the third session, when the
psychiatrist suggested that she commit herself to the psychiatric
ward at Memorial Hospital, Anne decided to discontinue the
treatment.
Except for the psychiatrist, Anne says she was treated well by
the medical, legal and counseling organizations she dealt witk
The three months following the second rape, when she lived
with her fellow-worker and house-sat for a professor during the
Christmas vacation, was the time she struggled most with the
psychological horror of the rape crises, she says.
"When I was living with (the fellow-employee), I wasn't afraid
very much," she says. "But that's when I realized I had deadened
myself, steeled myself to a lot of emotions and to my terror, to
just about everything that had happened to me in the past three
months."
Remembering the two weeks she house-sat for the professor,
the first time she had lived alone since the second rape, Anne
says, "The dam of my feelings and my emotions and my terror,
starting breaking. You see, 1 had closed myself off from them. I
had just thrown up a barrier, and that barrier crumbled.
"I was having to deal with what had happened to me, how 1
would go on, whether I would live alone again and a lot of
ambiguities about friendships that 1 had just shoved aside.
"It was like all my personal problems fell down on my head."
In January, Anne moved into an apartment by herself. At that
time, she began to experience again the feelings of fear she
remembered from three months earlier, she says.
However, because, she had convinced herself that she would
live in the apartment only temporarily, she was able to deal with
the fear, she says.
Seven months later, she moved into a small house and has lived
there since.
Sitting with her feet pulled up in her chair, Anne says she
believes her friends and fellow-workers are largely responsible
for the recovery she has made in the last 2'$ years.
The days immediately following the rapes were the most
crucial, she says. "I didn't want to tell them (her friends and
fellow workers) sometimes. It hurt them for me to have to tell
them. 1 mean they would just fall on the floor
"They would just be so upset, and I would have to pick them up
and pat them and say, 'Look, it's OK, I'm alive. I'm a girl, you
know, and this is what happened.'
"They would talk to me about it and that was real good
because 1 had to tell. 1 told people everyday. Sometimes 1 would
find notes on my desk saying they were sorry. 1 appreciated that."
Anne says the rapist, who claimed to be a burglar when not a
rapist, has not been caught. And always in the back of her mind,
she says, is the thought that he is still in "Chapel Hill.
"It was a while before 1 could get angry at him," she says. "I
would be irrationally angry at other people but not at him. And
then I would realize that that was crazy.
"Now 1 am angry at him and at whatever caused him to be that
way."
She says the rapes, besides prompting the usual precautions,
such as not walking alone in deserted places after dark, have
changed her perception of incidents that remind her of the crisis.
For example, she says, two springs ago she began jogging, but
quit shortly afterward.
"People noticed me when 1 was running," she says. "A lot of
people screamed, guys screamed when they came by in cars. It
scared me.
"Always before they had done it, but they didn't bother me that
much. It was like, 'Oh, they're just hollering,' because they see a
woman and they aren't going to notice what I look like or
anything like that.
"Now I'm not so sure. 1 know people watch me. And if they
watch me, they can follow me and notice where 1 live. 1 started
noticing a lot of things after that."
Another incident that has had an impact on her occurred after
a UNC football game when she was walking along Rosemary
Street, she says.
"In front of a local bar, all these people were spilling out into
For info on rape
the street. AH these men started making corffoients and trying to
get me to come in. It made me angry," she says.
"I'm angry because I have to live with this fear, I have to learn
to .cope with this fear. I'm angry because I have nightmares, I'm
angry because I just feel like I'm not very normal," she says
pausing to find the right word, sounding depressed, resigned.
"There are some preventive things you can do, but in the end
there are cases where it happens no matter what you do."
Activities, seminars -this week
By PAM KELLEY
Staff Writer I
Local groups have planned a variety of
activities to inform the public about rape
this week in response to Chapel Hill
Mayor Jimmy Wallace's declaration of
March 25-31 as Rape Awareness Week.
A public information display put
together by the Association for Women
Students wilT be in the Union from 1 1:30
a.m. to 2:30 p.m. today. At 7:30 p.m.
members of the Orange County Sheriffs
Department and the Chapel Hill
Carrboro Rape Crisis Center and an
assistant district attorney will present
"An Overview of the Rape Issue" at the
Cedar Grove Rouritan Club.
From 4:30 to 7:30 p.m. Tuesday the
Rape Crisis Center will present another
public information display in University
Mall. "We want people to know who we
are and what we do," center director
Margaret Shackford said. "We want
them to know that they have a place to
call and ask questions."
"Lady Beware," a program on personal
safety on campus, will be presented at
7:30 p.m. Tuesday in room 217 of the
Union by Lt. Charlie Mauer of the
University Police and members of the
AWS.
A police perspective on rape will be
given at 7:30 p.m. Wednesday in the
Chapel Hill Police Department
courtroom by representatives from the
Chapel Hill and Carrboro police
departments and the Rape Crisis Center.
A third information display will be
held from 11:30 a.m. to 2:30 p.m.
Thursday in the NCNB Plaza. The
medical aspects of rape will be examined
at 7:30 p.m. Thursday at Stanford Junior
High School in Hillsborough by
members of the North Carolina
Memorial Hospital Rape Crisis Team
and David Hughes of the Orange County
Sheriffs Department.
An all-day seminar on rape will be held
Saturday, March 31, in Carrboro Town
Hall. At 10 a.m. a slide and tape
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presentation prepared by a rape victim
will be shown. The medical treatment of
rape victims will be discussed at 10:45
a.m.
At 1 1:30 a.m. local police officials will
present a perspective on rape and at noon
a discussion on the court system and the
rape victim will be held. Home security
will be discussed by local police at 12:30
p.m., followed by a personal safety
discussion at 1:45 p.m. Seminar
participants will hold a panel discussion
at 2:30 p.m.
"In Orange County from 1977 to 1978
there was a 650 percent increase in rape
reports from two to 13 reports," Rape
Crisis Center director Shackford said.
"From these figures it is impossible to tell
if the number of rapes has increased. I'd
like to think people are just becoming
more willing to report them," she said.
Anyone who would like to talk to a
counselor from the Rape Crisis Center
should call 967-RAPE. Shackford said.
Janus honors
new members
for dorm work
In a pre-dawn ceremony Friday, the
Society of Janus initiated 42 students and
five honories at the Temple of Janus in
Gerrard Hall.
The Society of Janus was formed in
1956 to recognize men and women in the
University community who have given
outstanding service to UNC residence
life.
The students inducted were Joanne
Sue Adler, Tina Lynn Alexander, Vernon
Thomas Banks, Craig Burdeen Brown,
Edward Charles Camp, Ronald Wade
Cottle, James Mitchell Cox, David Allen
Craft, Steven Leonard Davis and Janice
Lynne Edmiston.
Also inducted were Frances Louise
Flanagan, Janis Lee -Francis, Elizabeth
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Karen Lynn Grossriickle, Michael David
Holesh, Randy Garris Holmes, Donald
Eugene Honbarrier, James William
Huneycutt, Glenda Faye Jones, Stuart
Manly Jones and Carol Ann Kirby.
Others inducted were Susan Kay Ladd,
Marguerete Darlene Love, David Leon
Matthews II, Paul Worsley Mayberry,
Maureen There McClintock, Ricky
Verlin Murray, Annete Marie Neese,
Teresa Jane Reel, Martha Elizabeth
Sellars, Daniel Owen Shackleford, Lynne
Piper Shackleford .and Michael Ray
Shelor. .
Also inducted were Carolyn Jean
Spivey, Randy Franklin Spivey, Dianne
Travis, Thomas Stanley Vitt, Harvey
Langill Watson, Kathryn Frances
Williams, Susan Jane Williams and
Charles Donald Woodard.
Honoraries inducted were Tris E.
Burgess, George F. Harpster, Edna
McCauley, Steven Curtis McCormick
and Ronald Allison Wilson.
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